I'm back from Baker. The trip was okay. It's very boring over in Baker. The only thing they seem to do over there is to watch TV and wait for the next meal to come along. I spent time watching Storage Wars, MMA fights, a show about people repossessing cars, and American Idol. TV is a waste of time in my life. Then again so is this computer and all the blogs I read and surfing I do.
I guess we all need a waste of time in our lives.
I started the WIT program yesterday. I'm a bit nervous about what this is going to bring to me. I know self-awareness is a good thing, but I'm so overwhelmed with learning about me. I know how to ignore me and focus on those around me. That is familiar and known. The thing is that it's no longer comfortable. It may be scary to go through this program, but I want to give it my all and get the most out of it. Something has to change.
My family and I can't keep going like this.
The garden is coming along. Adam and I worked together on Sunday and got the majority of the brassica bed prepped. We need to incorporate some compost into that bed and form the rows before planting, but it's getting close. I love the fact that we worked together and didn't till the bed this year. We did it all with a hand held tiller-looking thing and a garden claw. It only took the afternoon, and it felt good to work with Adam on a project for the afternoon and look at how good it looked afterwards. I love him so much. I want him to be happy, but with my emotions being the way they are I seem bent on bringing hurt into our lives. I want this cycle to stop. I need this cycle to stop.
Keep breathing and moving forward.
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